slumdog millionaire

im at the office. finally, i steal some time to watch slumdog millionaire. it really reminds me of malaysian very own movie 'sepet'. its a low cost movie, not like the ordinary hindi movie where it will takes millions of dollars, but still slumdog millionaire is full of its content and art.

its a about a guy name jamal who enter who wansts to be a millionaire reality show. he answers all the questions based on what have happen through out his life started from a slum, to a beggar, to a chaiwalla and lastly a millionaire. if u watch this, u really have to into it cuz from there u could see the art of the movie. no wonder this movie won so much oscars. i acknowledge it is a great movie

feels like a film critic pulak

sale.sale and sale

stress!






GUESS is on sale
IKEA is on sale
Topshop is on sale
LA Senza is on sale too!

happy birthday papa

happy 58th birthday pa.

i was sick yesterday. fever. thats what ali told me. i wanted to blog something yesterday but i was too sick and not prepared to blog. i was sick and yet facing the fact that today is papa's birthday. i went back early, and when i reach home, my mom is already on the bed. she's not feeling well.

without changing my clothes, i straight lay beside her. have a little chit chat and all of sudden, i said "esok birthday papa. kalau die ada, he will be 58". i know i shouldnt say that. but next thing i know is, me and my mom was crying. all of us is missing him. missing him very badly. we were crying till i fall asleep. when i woke up, i heard my mom mengaji (reciting alquran). i know she misses him.

if my papa is still in this world, he will be 58th this year. he will always look smart and handsome. he will always look good and will never admit if he is sick. he will be dress smart eventhough just to feed those goats at the back of our home. he will be riding his bike and have chit chats with his friends at a coffee shop at town. and every year if i ask him, what he wants for his birthday, he will answer anything i could not afford such as a harley davidson bike or a bmw car. simply, cuz he knows that its the easiest way not to let his children to spend for him

we are missing u badly papa. happy 58th bday. al-fatihah

2 days to my late father birthday

its another 2 days to my fathers birthday. my mom is at kl. we insists her to stay till the weekend. i dont want her to go home cuz i know on the 26th is gonna be a very emotional day. i want her to stay here so that we could go through papa's birthday together.

thanks to god, i dont have to go to kuantan tomorrow. i wish not to go actually. i'd rather stay close to my family. its gonna be more emotional if i go to kuantan, cuz the place that we book to stay is a place where me, my mom and my papa went together. i bet i'll be in tears remembering.

its weird u know when my papa is gone, the missing part is really dramatic. honestly, my papa is not always around. his work is always not in kl. it started when he became the Malaysia National Coach for Lawn Bowl. He was always busy with trainings and travel overseas. Yet im proud of him. Than, he continued with developing Impiana Hotel (now known as Ancasa Hotel). My papa's is really good in managing. and i think i know, where do i get this event line from. After Impiana Hotel, he proceeds to Ipoh to reconstruct Greentown Bowling. And yet, it was a success. The last project that he's involved was the Jerejak Resort & Spa. that is totally his baby. he develop from scratch. from an isolated island to a 5 star resort. im trully part of u pa!

when his gone, when u realize that his not in the world anymore, it hurt so much. u than start realize how much u really love him. how much his existence meant to u. just by looking at his picture, could spark ur tears. just by imitating what he said, could make u cry all night. im the last child in the family. obviously, i could consider myself quite close to him.

i just wish that i have more time.

to my friends, i know at this age, sometimes u felt that u had spent enuff time with ur family. trust me. it will never be enough. when one day, his gone, than u'll know how desperately u'll miss him. so, give more time to ur family. u'll never know what u will miss

namecard

yeay! i got my business card already

the value of a woman

The value of a woman:

This couldn't be said more beautifully... be careful if u make a woman cry because GOD counts her tears. A woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. not from his head to be superior over, but from his side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved. And thats why you are my sayang... and you are my heart

ali gave me this message on 23.8.08 at 12.59pm.

3 days to my late father birthday

today is 23rd february 2009. in 3 days, if my father is still with us, he will be 58 this year. even though its been 10 months he passed away, i still could never wipe out my tears each time i think about him. i was happy this morning but when i see the date of today, its another 3 days to his birthday. i started crying. i miss u papa. i really do

im in tears now. just by remembering his birthday is coming. i still remembered last year when we celebrate his birthday. his last birthday with us. we celebrate my mom and dad's birthday together. it is still fresh in my memory. i miss u so much pa.

i hate to count the days to ur birthday. its gonna make me sad each time i think and realize that ur gone. i may be naughty at times but i love u pa. its hard to say but i trully admit that i love u and missing u so badly now. wish u were here with us.

may u rest in peace pa. fifi rindu papa sangat sangat. :( al-fatihah.

thank u sarah molko

i would like to thank sarah for Reggae by Vibracion shirt.
Muah muah muah.
(~kakak, kita suke gle baju nie!)

missing u

my ali is in penang. missing u baby!~ cpatla balik...

my memoir 2004-2008

the reveal day

meor bday

ceria box karaoke

9903 buka puasa : 11 spirit

my 22nd bday

live n loud crew at cameron

live and loud crew at bukit kiara

hang out at didie'e place

beautilicious members after samsons show

best buddy : bam bam

misa crew (yes thats my ali!)

backstreet boys concert

counseling night

syed faliq fahmi

me & anis at scarlett

fira bday celebration

with aira at impiana klcc

my long lost brother : abg wan at coe foodcourt

merdeka celebration 2007

imitating roxy ad with fasya

at kampung

after first break up

one happy moments

precious people in life

ida's wedding

anep unplanned gathering

my core bestfriends

my earliest housemates

10th march 2004

my precious

i was looking to my old pictures that i had when i start studying in uniten. to be honest, tons of memories to be remembered. above are all my happy moments. to those that i have hurt, im sorry. to those that we had arguments before, im sorry. to those who shared our happiness together, thank you for colouring me and for those who still stay with me, i appreciate our friendship very much. but most of all, thank you for all the memories. hard to say, we bring our separate ways but that's how life is always be. i will always miss u all. u guys will always be in my memory.

rihanna leaked bruisses picture

i was truly shocked when TMZ exlcusively release rihanna's picture. she was badly abused! her face is badly bruises, swallen and scratch. CB might have some issues but for me this is not the way to solve things. a picture worth a thousand words. and only with this one picture, CB is automatically will be hated, mad or even curse by the whole world.

my belief, a man should not lay their hands on women! never. its just the matter of respect. i know women, sometimes could really test their anger but still, it is not a reason to be hit. women are weak. they pretend like they are strong. but physically they are not.

i've been accidentally hit once by my gud friend in a school play back in 98. my gud friend, julie accidentally hit me and my blood spill around the school stage and the whole school saw that cuz that time was rehearsal. my lips was swallen as i accidentally bite my inner mouth. is so damn bloody painful. just imagine, that was a girl. if a man hits a girl with intention, just imagine how painful is that.

for u my bloggers reader, respect ur women how they should be respect. never hit her cuz once u lay ur hands on her, she will lost respect to u at once. everything could be solve. its just the matter of time and patient

transformer 2 is coming!

Transformer 2 :


Revenge of the Fallen is coming up people! i heard is somewhere around june. i really enjoyed the first one (to be honest, i watch it 4 times!) lalala.. hope the second will be maintain its greatness

wish list

since i was in secondary school, i like to make wish list. its a list of what i wish to have or what i want at that moment. last time when im at school (btw im in boarding school), outing time is like the greatest of all. each alternate saturday morning, during prep time, i will scratch on a piece of paper of list of things that i want to get so that i will buy whats prioritize first.

nowadays, that list still exists. definitely each month. starting from toiletries, groceries, stationary, and list go on. but i still have a DESIRE LIST where i wish the things that i want for that year. usually when a wish is granted, i will tick with a red pen and write done. i know its kinda sick having this kind of list, but its like something that u will work hard for.

this time im gonna tell u what i desire for this year. its just a wish list people!

desire 2009

1. plasma tv
2. iphone
3. designer sunglasses
4. designer handbag
5. vacuum cleaner (i know its weird for this age! but i need one for my home - electrolux to be specific)
6. streamyx and astro at home
7. slr camera or lomo would do
8. holiday
9. lastly at the moment, my engagement proposal and ring! ( i hope he doesnt read this)

my girl

hey intan,

im sorry for not hanging out with u a lot nowadays. i know i've been busy with work and ali. im sorry dear. u know that the closests person next to my heart is u. u have always been my bestfriend forever sampai mati. im sorry for not being able to accompany u to amir's gig, hangouts or party that u want me to be there with u. im sorry sayang. to be honest, i miss hanging out with u, amir, the shemenaks and dbd plus all our good friends. i miss u, i miss lena, i miss bob, and i miss yas too. u guys are my bestest friend ever. i miss u girl. dont be mad k. i promise to hang out with u as often i could k shayang. muahx muahx muahx. i luv u lalink ku intan!

phea

ps: kalau tba2 satu hari alicia keys dtg malaysia, u'll be the first one in my list. MUAHX!

lomo camera

LOMO IS SO HOT! see for urself.

new hairdo!

i know im crazy to blog twice in the same day. but i just got passionate in blogging tonight. im still at the office, waiting for the rehearsals to end. basically everyone in the 2nd floor have already gone home and relaxing while me, still sitting on the desk listening to my winamp outloud since there's no one (actually just to make sure i dont here weird noise.. oh god please dont). actually im kinda feeling dizzy looking at all the numbers on my desk and work that i got to do. most of it are in top hands but still, im just worried if i may accidentally mislook....

yesterday, ali asked me out. i thought by having my weekends relaxing but he insists to go out. so okay, we went out. in the car he was just in a mood to go out. okay baby, lets go out. then he asked where are we going so i made him to picked. the best part is he picked mahkota parade. and his crazy. i dont want to follow crazy desicions ( u nie gle tau!). so again he redecide to go to the curve. i guess that just our place nowadays. not in a mood to got far. nak masuk kl pon malas. just imagine that.

so we went to the curve and ate our lunch there. ali was crazy to drag me to a salon to re do my hair (ok i tau rambut i dah setengah setengah colour). he left me there to do my hair and manicure. its been a while i didnt treat myself. so here people. this is the new me. still chubby but more to confidence to come. i may be soft, but dont let me be loud cuz u never know what i would do. ~ooh! garangnya!

i luv u day

i know we're not supposed to celebrate valentines day. well i guess its a subjective matter to everyone. as for me, i was trained not to exactly celebrate the day but, i change the day to 'i luv u day'. everyday is a lovely day but 'i luv u day' is just to replace valentines day. but whatever. its subjective right.

well, my 'i luv u day' started a night before when ali gave me a bouquet of red rose flower. awww.... this is like the 4th time i receive flowers from him. i dont mean to brag people! im just sharing with u my happiness than one told me to find. ok back to the flower.. i was searching in the internet about the meaning of number of roses and look what i found!

• - 1 Rose Love at the first sight; you are the one

• - 2 Roses Mutual love between both, deeply in love with one another

• - 3 Roses I love you

• - 6 Roses I wanna be yours

• - 7 Roses I'm infatuated with you

• - 9 Roses An Eternal love, together as long as we live

• - 10 Roses You are perfect

• - 11 Roses You are my treasured one; the one I love most in my life

• - 12 Roses Be my steady

• - 13 Roses Secret Admirer

• - 15 Roses I am truly sorry, please forgive me

• - 20 Roses Believe me, I am sincere towards you

• - 21 Roses I am devoted to you

• - 24 Roses Can't stop thinking about you, 24 hours everyday

• - 33 Roses Saying "I love you" with great affection

• - 36 Roses I will remember our romantic moments

• - 40 Roses My love for you is genuine

• - 50 Roses Regretless love, this is

• - 99 Roses I will love you for as long as I live

and i got 7! i guess ali was trying to say I'm infatuated with you... awww .. ur so shweet baby.. thank u for the luvly roses. so the next day come by and we both were very busy with work. i have rehearsals to supervise and tons of work to do. later around 4pm in the evening, i started to plan surprised dinner for him. with green lights from nomie, i head up straight to ssf to get few deco for the surprised dinner.

went back home, and start cooking and decorating. started with the candles, lighting and than concentrating on cooking. honestly, my cooking is not that good but im still in the process of learning and making it better. so that night i decide to cook spaghetti bolognaise, with fruit and vege salad, together with my significant orange soda and also mushroom soup. i was trying my best to keep up with the time. i made some arrangement with few friends and wala~ he was damn bloody surprised when he got the invitation.




he likes my cooking and i enjoy my 'i luv u day' surprised dinner. thanx friends for helping out here and there. i promise to cook extra next time. muahx. happy 'i luv u day' people. i love u, i love u and i love u

Thinking of You

Kate Perry

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

* i think this song is for lover who could not get over of their first love.

count me in

1. im short. my height is only 153cm. im the youngest in the family and yet the only one who is not married. i have a mother, 3 sisters, 3 brothers in law, 4 nephews, 1 niece

2. my father pass away on 11 march 2008. his favorite car plate number is AAK 33. Our house number at Tampin is also 33. The significant of 33 to our family is, my father and mother last together for 33 years.

3. i like this one bread. have u heard of gardenia butterscotch bread? its really tasty u know and it only cost u RM4.00. For those who have a hard time to find this bread, i think 7 eleven has it.

4. i have one believe which is not to stay with you best friends in the same house. i just believe, when u live with them, u will start not to like them. and believe its true. so thats y, darling ku intan, i dont want to stay in the same house with u. cuz i luv u so much i dont want to jepordize even a bit of our beautiful friendship.

5. im a jealosy type of girl.and i never like long distance relationship. distance is sumthing that i could not deal with. if possible i just want my man to be near with me. i like to make assumptions which i believe is very bad. but thats me. in a way im trying to control myself not to be irrational.

6. i learned that women should not check their man phone messages, emails, or any personal things or even subscribe to friend finder. obviously, its intruding people's privacy. but as for me, its just a way for u to find truth thats gonna hurt u. so let it be. just believe that anything will come out wether is good or bad. its just the matter of time.

7. my career passion is more to event management. i think at the moment im doing the job that i like and i want. working as a part of production management in capital studio is a worthy experience. i started to learn about technicality and production wise in terms of handling events. who knows, i might open a production house on my own.

8. i have 2 kittens named estrella and anarchy. but my kittens have gender confusion. at first we thought anarchy is a tomcat and estrella is a feline but when their age reach 2 months, i just got to know that it is the other way round. my 2 kittens dont sleep with me, but each time when i wake up in the morning, estrella and anarchy will wait for me infront of my door.

9. honestly, right now im trying to be a better person. a mature person and trying to be as responsible as i could with the life that i have. i just want my family to feels happy. and also i just want to love my love one like how he love me back.

puteri gunung ledang the musical season 3

"..adinda bersumpah, jika kekanda tidak kembali, adinda akan menyusul kekanda, berinjak pada bumi yang sama, bernafas pada udara yang sama.." Gusti Puteri

all my life i've never watch theater. thanks to my boss, he gave us tickets to watch puteri gunung ledang the musical season 3. i have always wanted to watch. hearing for friends and sisters that pgl musical is a world class theater, in really increases my anxiety to watch.

even though at first my love ali could not make it as he got tons of work to do which he has to prepare dome setup for melaka the next day, he sacrifice his night for me. thank u sayang for making my dream come true. all of us went with the same car. we were lucky as the car that we bring along actually have some 'bintang' at the plate number. all of us rushes to istana budaya and yeay! we got the VIP parking.

watching pgl from the grand circle together with high corporate people is an honour. but the most honour of all is, all of us are in the same cirle with the KING! Daulat Tuanku. At first we didnt realize the King and Queen is there. We only got to know when there are so many bodyguards at the cirlce and people around the King and Queen started to give 'sembah'.

well that is not the main story actually, watching pgl that night is trully amazing. i was stunt with magic, props, words, music, singing and all. the props are beautifully decorated, their dancing are highly spirited, their singing are tremendous. everyhting in a way i see is perfect. at first i thought it was recorded in terms of words and singing but when i ask rafi, he said that everything is LIVE. could u imagine, u dance and yet u sing. their voices didnt crack or out of tune at all. i was trully amazed. i now believe what people said about theater actors and actress. if they can act in theater, they are a trully a star.

in a way, i could say that pgl is something malaysia could be proud off. congratulations to the production for performing an excellent job. for those who got the chance to watch pgl this season, i truly suggest to prepare yourself to be amazed. i heard that this season is going to be the last season for datin tiara to act. so dont loose this chance.

to my collegue, thanx for making that night as one memorable night. thanx to my boss for the ticket and thanx to my dear ali, for accompanying me.

fening lalat la

i fening lalat la today.
dizzy. fuzzy. moozy (moody).
well eventually, i came back at 4 am yesterday. a very good friend of mine which i consider him like a brother needed a favor from me. i dont exactly call it favor. i called it as a friend who in need to talk. i remembered there was a time at my worst moment, i came to him to ask for advise. he did. he advise me whatever that is rational at that time.

yesterday we were discussing how weird, unexpected life can be. well its true what people said, we only could plan but the one who make the plan succeed is our GOD ALMIGHTY. we sometimes question ourselves, how could this be. everything was plan well but it doesnt work the way we plan it. and back to the basic, i believe 'everything happen for a reason'.

life is unfair. that is true. life is cruel. that is also true. but life is also beautiful when u finalize to see the rationality of it. i remind myself again and again, after losing a persons that i truly love and care, that in life you could not always have whatever u want. u may hold it so tight in ur arms but u'll never know, the one that u hold eventually will let u go.

i know my blog this time is like very melodica-metaphore-dovey-doeeii.. im just feeling kinda blue and like i mention before... feeling very moozy...

and now nomie just asked me to follow her to klcc. the last time i went there was 10.03.2008. god.. no tears please.

on my desk

whats on my desk RIGHT now:
a cup of milo
a mineral water
my laptop
my external hard disk
my stapler
my watch
office phone
tesco tissue paper
my name card book
my name card box
my family photo frame
1 mechanical pencil
1 ball pen
1 mouse pad
1 stack of draft paper
1 pack of cigarette
my blue clear folder file
my short hand notebook
my handphones
my pink mouse
my university notebook
quotation and receipt file
colours of malaysia adminstration file
70 cents
and also my landyard


can u imagine how serabut i am now!!!!