Ya Tuhan

tuhan permudahkan jalan ku
sekiranya dia adalah untukku, kau terangilah perjalanan ini dan berkatinya Ya Allah.

tuhan kuatkan diri ku
sekiranya dia bukan untukku, ku redha dan tunjukkanlah aku jalan yang benar Ya Allah

sesungguhnya kau yang maha berkuasa dan tahu segala yang terbaik untuk umat manusia.

next step

am i doing the right step?

god help me to decide. this is not an easy decision that i could just decide.
please give me your guidance, is this the right step for me to take?
or this is just a path that i need to go through.
please god help me. i dont want to regret at a later time.
i just want a simple and happy life.
an everlasting love and meaningful marriage.
a love tender in every day of life.
i dont need wealth, i just want love.
please god. i really do not know what should i do now.
please show me the lights.

thoughts

halo.

mintak maaf sebab dah lama x update blog. agak bz lately sebab penukaran kerja dan penukaran cara hidup. maka bukanlah sesuatu yang senang untuk di adjust sekelip mata. tapi, alhamdulillah, keadaan semakin better dan better every day.

so, new year dah dekat. whats ur new resolution? well, for me, belum ada lagi. banyak sangat yang x tercapai. overall, boleh la dikatakan, this year was definitely a year that have so many remarks on me. ada yang baik, ada yang tak. ada yang harus dilupakan dan ada yg pasti akan terpahat di dalam hati. wah... bersastawardono pulak. maaflah. emosi akan kurang stabil, biasa lah perempuan.

banyak perkara yang berlaku tahun ini. terus terang, i have to say, i change a lot. sbnarnya, dulu, i think, i kinda have a lot of friends. but this year, it kinda make me realize, that i dont have much anymore. i think i can count friends that are really close to me. bukan nak kejar, kawan yang ramai. kalau dapat kawan rmai, sernok sebab meriah. tapi sekarang, sebab diri sendiri yang kurang bercampur dgn orang, mgkin membuatkan friendship x beberapa close. i miss them. seriously. kalau dulu, i always have friends around me, tp skarang, i just dont go out anymore, hang out late night anymore. sometimes rasa bersalah, kalau kalau mereka rasa yang i dont care about them anymore. i do. is just, my life this year was very complicated.

this year also have tought me so much. i take life too seriously where i plan too much and expect too much. i assume a lot and most of it distruct me. i dont regret believing my instincts cause alhamdulillah, they always show me the reality. for whatever reason, i dont regret for having this so much path this year as it actually build the real me right now.

its a new year coming, and im wish is gonna be a good year for me and everyone. i just wish that i can appreciate life more and always be happy with it. life is not about planning, life is just about how u do to make it sinple and interesting

my first 24th bday pressie

alhamdulillah.

rasa kelakar sebab last year amik gamba pon dengan baju yang sama

http://sophialittlevoice.blogspot.com/2009/06/e-71.html

bile saya dapat gaji bulan ini saya nak beli apa

ok. tipu lah kalau perkara ini x pernah terjadi pada anyone. kalau ada, itu nasib la k. tapi this is wat i always do. start to list apa barang yang nak di beli or perlu di bayar. kononya disiplin. tapi. hmm. slalu over budget. maka pada bulan nie, saya berharap saya dapat beli

a) kasut. please. dah lama sangat x beli

(ok ko tipu kan. masa kat perth ko dah hentam 3 kasut)

b) baju

(ok nie betul. dah lama x beli. change style maybe)

c) groceries

(ok part nie ko mmg nak kena sekeh. belambak gile brg ayah bg kat ko, ko lagi nak beli)

d) iphone

(berangan la ko. tggu tahun depan. iphone 4. sabar sket boleh)

e) ipad

(celah mana ko nak beli? baik simpan asb la ngok ngek)

ok nie je kot. KOTT. Haish.

tekanan perasaan pulak.

love the way u lie

post ini tiada kaitan dengan apa2 ye. cume this song is spinning in my head now.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

Well that's all right because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

love the way u lie

eminem & rihanna

capital

i have submit my notice of resignation last monday. 1 month notice effective on 12th july 2010. i believe my last day will be on the 12th august 2010. but i still have few more days for my annual leave so i guess i need clarify back when is my last date with capital.

leaving capital production is not an easy decision. believe it or not, the moment i want to press the button send when i want to email by resignation letter, it took me a while just to gather my guts to do it. the feelings is heavy, deep and sad. capital is where i start. that is the place where i start to learn about most things in working environment.

i have been working on and off with capital for about 3 years. it started when zac (my ex - uncle) invited me to join for the Live & Loud festival working as Head of Manpower. From that moment, its like falling in love into entertainment business.

i love working with events, people, artists, glamour, super loud speakers, super stage, crazy lights, super tiring work, late night work, busy schedule environment. i really enjoy it. some people say working in this line is really happening as u can meet lots of artiste. YES. thats correct, but believe me, this line will make u work ur ass of like hell till u dont even bother if EWF is walking beside of u or even Ne-Yo cause ur too tired too even look at them.

but whatever it is, it was really fun and enjoyable moment. its definitely my greatest memory as i believe this is the line that i should live in. but what can i do, its time for me to find more opportunity in life. life stays ahead and whats left behind, shall be my guidance in finding the way to live life.

to you capital, thank you and u'll be miss.