long nag

to care for someone is easy. to love someone is easy. to trust someone is easy. but to stay with someone to the rest of your life is not an easy task. to love someone and willing to go through thick and thin, the good and bad of love is not easy. and to gain trust that is lost along the way is never easy. it takes time, patience and also believing to go succeed.

we always hear, accept the person for who he or she is. but its human nature. human is born with curiosity, we will start to ask questions when we dont understand or could not find the logic of it. but sometimes this questions leads to a place whereby it gives a non-satisfactionary to the person itself.

i myself happen to have this curiosity. i do question a lot and yes im good in this. y do i do it? cause i wanna know. i wanna know so that i know and remind myself what path have i choose and what i have put myself into. i can be very persuasive or sometimes very understanding. i have to say that i have double personality.

i dont know what life offer me in the next few years or even tomorrow. i may get married and have a family or i might not get married and just be somebody who concentrates in career. i never know.

but i know that marriage is far away. dont get me wrong. i love kids, i really do. but at the moment, i have to say that im not ready for any of it. im still learning what life is and what love do. im still trying to understand the beauty of love and what marriage is. yes, i sound frustrated.

but i dont want to rush thing and end up sad. i just want a happy life.

i still dream of a family. me and my husband. with our children living happily. im just waiting for everything to be right. right man, right place, right time and right decision. ohhh~ i dream too much.

anarchy give birth

my kitty (not so kitty anymore, she's a mommy)
give birth to 4 cute babies
additional family in the house
woot woot!

pagi 3 ramadhan

pagi pagi bangun dah sedih
nothing on display phone
sahur ngan mama, adam and nasuha
lepas sahur tido
bangun kol 6.30
mandi
iron baju kurung
make up
start engine keta
tba2 sakit perut
...

adam, alan and nasuha salam sblom balik
salam mama
mama nampak sedih
dlm hati sendiri lagi sedih
drive
sampai bawah rumah
tgk and lambai mama

lalu dekat jalan rumah mak tam
nampak kubur papa
7.15 am
rasa nak pegi lawat
masuk lorong g tanah perkuburan
takde tudung
pakai hood sweater
pg kat kubur papa
kubur papa warna hijau
hijau marma
terus nangis
lama sangat tak pgi
last masa raya
sedekah al-fatihah
nangis lagi
rindu sangat papa
bgtau pasal convo dan apa yg mampu
sedih dan rindu
singgah kubur pak tam
sedekah alfatihah

start engine keta
pg mobil kat tampin
isi minyak
ingat nak tambah nilai
tp tak bukak lagi
kol 9 baru bukak
maka, drive terus g sungai buloh
9.16 am
sampai office

semalam adalah sejarah
hari ini adalah realiti
esok adalah misteri

otak pusing

masih di kampung
mama pg semayang tarawikh
adam, alan and nasuha tgh main apa ntah kat atas
aku duduk mengadap laptop (kena jadi nanny sebenarnya)

otak pusing
mama x sihat
kisah hidup xdela best sangat
esok lepas sahur nak drive balik kl,
kereja

adoi
penatla macam nie
dah malas dah nak pk apa2
cume mahukan

......

i trully give up

tiada

ke hulu ke hilir memegang phone
setiap saat nak tgk display phone
kot kot kalau ada apa-apa
tp tiada

tuhan saja yang tahu

menu berbuka 1st day puasa

menu @ kampung

nasi putih
udang masak kunyit
ikan pari masak asam
sayur pucuk
drummet ayam

kuih keria

*harapan jumpe di bazaar ramadhan*
ikan sembilang masak sambal
telur itek masak lemak
soya bean / mata kucing

3 jam lagi nak berbuka
sabar

giving up

im think im going to give up

oh god *tears*

selamat menyambut ramadhan

esok puasa. maka hari ini berangkatla anak2 che pah pulang ke kmpung untuk menyambut ramadhan yang mulia. as for aku, today x masuk office. dah mula rasa sore throat dan smalm aku flue. untuk mengelakkan penyebaran virus, maka aku decided to stay at home.

sempena bulan ramadhan nie, i would like to apologize untuk segala salah dan silap yang ter atau sengaja di lakukan. mintak ampun, mintak maaf. minta halalkan makan minum. kalau ada hutang pesan makanan tapi x bayar lagi, silala bgtau. kadang kadang terlupa. hehe

kepada yang pulang ke kampung, drive car safely, have a safe trip. insya'allah, ada rezeki, kita jumpe masa raya nanti : D

convo blues

nanti ye saya update lagi... curik2 buat collage kat office. hehe
gamba gamba lain di fb ye

gembira

aku tau aku cam agak sengal..
but wat can i say..
im happy
im graduating soon!

naperla slalu kena macam nie..
tak larat la...
penat tau tak

happy bday fiza

happy birthday fiza.
syang fiza ngan shazz
tidak lupa kak ayna dan ali dan tony
muahx

graduation tick tock

omg.. tick tock.. my graduation is 6 days away

checklist

1. send baju convo to dry clean - dah
2. to confirm photographer
3. identify which shoe to wear
4. hair do where?
5. make up?
6. convo online survey - dah
7. mani and pedi.. oowh terlupa pulak

weekend chores

crazy enuff to paint the new kitchen space.
paint kitchen maroon.
paint alone.
like really alone by myself.

and still sempat lagi melihat tanaman virtual di farmville...

haish..

the loneliness

Im sitting here
Thinking bout
How im gon-na do without
You around in my life and how am I
I gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind

So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again

I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life

the loneliness - babyface
my repeated track lullaby

annoyed

im kinda getting annoyed now

phone check

why do partners check the other partners phone?

just to secure their feeling that the other partner is not cheating.
but if the partner manage to find truth,
its damn bloody hurt

so try to avoid doing it
cause once u start, u cant stop

plus,
u will loose the trust
and when you get caught
its gonna be one hell of a fight

ALDO

omg.. i cant believe this..
my colleagues from capital gave me ALDO!
OMG OMG...
Thank you so much! I love it. I love it. I LOVE IT!!!!

happy 23rd bday sophia!

happy 23 bday
hope this year will be a good one
-site recce at gemas gold. sedih gile