long nag

to care for someone is easy. to love someone is easy. to trust someone is easy. but to stay with someone to the rest of your life is not an easy task. to love someone and willing to go through thick and thin, the good and bad of love is not easy. and to gain trust that is lost along the way is never easy. it takes time, patience and also believing to go succeed.

we always hear, accept the person for who he or she is. but its human nature. human is born with curiosity, we will start to ask questions when we dont understand or could not find the logic of it. but sometimes this questions leads to a place whereby it gives a non-satisfactionary to the person itself.

i myself happen to have this curiosity. i do question a lot and yes im good in this. y do i do it? cause i wanna know. i wanna know so that i know and remind myself what path have i choose and what i have put myself into. i can be very persuasive or sometimes very understanding. i have to say that i have double personality.

i dont know what life offer me in the next few years or even tomorrow. i may get married and have a family or i might not get married and just be somebody who concentrates in career. i never know.

but i know that marriage is far away. dont get me wrong. i love kids, i really do. but at the moment, i have to say that im not ready for any of it. im still learning what life is and what love do. im still trying to understand the beauty of love and what marriage is. yes, i sound frustrated.

but i dont want to rush thing and end up sad. i just want a happy life.

i still dream of a family. me and my husband. with our children living happily. im just waiting for everything to be right. right man, right place, right time and right decision. ohhh~ i dream too much.