thoughts

halo.

mintak maaf sebab dah lama x update blog. agak bz lately sebab penukaran kerja dan penukaran cara hidup. maka bukanlah sesuatu yang senang untuk di adjust sekelip mata. tapi, alhamdulillah, keadaan semakin better dan better every day.

so, new year dah dekat. whats ur new resolution? well, for me, belum ada lagi. banyak sangat yang x tercapai. overall, boleh la dikatakan, this year was definitely a year that have so many remarks on me. ada yang baik, ada yang tak. ada yang harus dilupakan dan ada yg pasti akan terpahat di dalam hati. wah... bersastawardono pulak. maaflah. emosi akan kurang stabil, biasa lah perempuan.

banyak perkara yang berlaku tahun ini. terus terang, i have to say, i change a lot. sbnarnya, dulu, i think, i kinda have a lot of friends. but this year, it kinda make me realize, that i dont have much anymore. i think i can count friends that are really close to me. bukan nak kejar, kawan yang ramai. kalau dapat kawan rmai, sernok sebab meriah. tapi sekarang, sebab diri sendiri yang kurang bercampur dgn orang, mgkin membuatkan friendship x beberapa close. i miss them. seriously. kalau dulu, i always have friends around me, tp skarang, i just dont go out anymore, hang out late night anymore. sometimes rasa bersalah, kalau kalau mereka rasa yang i dont care about them anymore. i do. is just, my life this year was very complicated.

this year also have tought me so much. i take life too seriously where i plan too much and expect too much. i assume a lot and most of it distruct me. i dont regret believing my instincts cause alhamdulillah, they always show me the reality. for whatever reason, i dont regret for having this so much path this year as it actually build the real me right now.

its a new year coming, and im wish is gonna be a good year for me and everyone. i just wish that i can appreciate life more and always be happy with it. life is not about planning, life is just about how u do to make it sinple and interesting