fening lalat la

i fening lalat la today.
dizzy. fuzzy. moozy (moody).
well eventually, i came back at 4 am yesterday. a very good friend of mine which i consider him like a brother needed a favor from me. i dont exactly call it favor. i called it as a friend who in need to talk. i remembered there was a time at my worst moment, i came to him to ask for advise. he did. he advise me whatever that is rational at that time.

yesterday we were discussing how weird, unexpected life can be. well its true what people said, we only could plan but the one who make the plan succeed is our GOD ALMIGHTY. we sometimes question ourselves, how could this be. everything was plan well but it doesnt work the way we plan it. and back to the basic, i believe 'everything happen for a reason'.

life is unfair. that is true. life is cruel. that is also true. but life is also beautiful when u finalize to see the rationality of it. i remind myself again and again, after losing a persons that i truly love and care, that in life you could not always have whatever u want. u may hold it so tight in ur arms but u'll never know, the one that u hold eventually will let u go.

i know my blog this time is like very melodica-metaphore-dovey-doeeii.. im just feeling kinda blue and like i mention before... feeling very moozy...

and now nomie just asked me to follow her to klcc. the last time i went there was 10.03.2008. god.. no tears please.